How to Grow Up

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How to Grow Up

“Andie Anderson, How to Girl!” If that did not pop into your head when you read the title, you my friend, have yet to live. For you sweet under-educated darlings, that is a quote from How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days. It is a classic. I attribute the film with many good memories, which really only makes the film better in my eyes. For one, it makes me think of one of my best friends, Mika.

As you may know, I am interning in New York City for the summer. Living here has completely changed my routine, and I am one hundred percent not lying when I say, “I’m busy”. In pursuit of a peaceful escape, this past weekend I ventured to Maine. Working and attempting to thrive in the city can be exhausting and I am SO thankful to have Maine. I have had Maine my entire life, and never appreciated it like I have this summer. Waking up to the waves crashing and a soft sea breeze is overwhelmingly calming. My first weekend in Maine this summer, I spent an entire day in my pajamas. I had several cups of tea, a book, and family. I sat on the patio, gazing at the ocean in a way that I never have before. So much comfort lied in the ocean’s R E A L depth. Gods creation should never be taken for granted, and I am glad I am able to truly soak in the beauty of his handiwork. I cannot place why it is instinctively relaxing to exist in His natural creation. Stepping away from the responsibilities of adulthood- temporary adulthood at least- and emerging into bliss has been nothing but fulfilling. It is not just taking a Friday off to not work; it is taking the time to remember the reality of being an adult. Being an adult is spending time with yourself. It is understanding how YOU, as an individual are going to come into the real world. I am understanding, that a full time job, is very difficult to manage. It is hard to manage other aspects of my life that I equally enjoy. It is helping me to figure out how I can create a healthy, creative and prosperous life for my sensitive soul.

I had a hiccup with my drive into adulthood this past weekend in Maine. Usually at this time of the year, I am in Maine with Mika. My crazy little best friend. This year, along with several other shakes of adulthood, she was and is not going to be in Maine. We usually have an entire long, luxurious, and stupidly lazy week to ourselves. We get to tan, eat food, watch movies, go on adventures and then watch another movie. Not having this youthful fun was difficult to ignore how it made me feel like even more of an adult. It is more difficult because she has spent the summer in Finland, with people whom I dearly love.

A cluster of my favorite people were in Helsinki, Finland this July and not being there was a challenge. It was a challenge because I flipping love Helsinki. I love the city, the culture, and most importantly the people. I love my friends, the church and the youth ministry. When I realized that working this summer meant I would not be able to join my friends, I tried to be as grownup as possible. I would say, apart from some meltdowns, I have done a good job. Going back to the meltdowns is the more difficult of the FOMO (Fear of Missing Out) that I experienced these past few weeks. I was comforted by knowing that I was supposed to stay in the city and not make the trip over there THIS summer. I can make several lists with an assorted category of reasons why I wanted to be there, but you just need to know, that I really wanted to be. I do not know why, but I know that God did not need me there, He needed me here.

He needed me here to experience undeserving love and blessings. This summer has been extraordinary and wildly unexpected in every aspect. I knew I was landing myself a full time internship but I did not know how that would send me into a tailspin of future oriented thoughts and discussions. I knew I was capable of making friends but had no idea I was going to be blessed with endless love and fellowship. I knew I loved to laugh but did not expect for laughter to follow me into the workplace, throughout my commute and intertwined in all of my friendships. I am okay with occasionally not going on a trip if it means letting God do the unexpected. Following His lead, permits His work to be done separate from my own agenda.

I’ve weaved through Maine, New York City and Finland, but it all leads to one thing. I am growing up. I am forced to leave behind traditions and trips that I have grown up with and even recently added to my life. I am also confronted with adjusting to new environments, jobs and people- constantly. I am letting go of the safety of young comforts. I am challenged to strengthen my faith. I am confident I will be in Maine again, being lazy with my loved ones and watching movies like How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days. I know that just because I am growing up, does not restrict me to any particular lifestyle. I am young, and blessed with time to create a lifestyle that suits Hannah Rice. I really did not tell you how to grow up, I really just told you how I am imperfectly surviving and still striving for a joyful life. Growing up is a twisted fate we are all faced to endure. I refuse to grow up in any traditional way, and follow a norm that does not agree with the desires of my heart. Grow up at your pace; leaving room for your heart, mishaps and faith to be sorted out with the timing they deserve.

Thank you for your support, texts and kind words. I am finishing up this summer strong and I am being equipped with masterfully curated joy. Thank you, if you have loved me this summer, because it has not gone unnoticed.

Xoxo H

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Pictures by Davy Kesey | Photographed in Cape Neddick, Maine

Wearing: Flannel (Moms Vermont thrift store find), Madewell Tee: sold out (other colors, similar & similar), Frame Denim jeans & Soludos x Jason Polan

Hair: Color by Ronnie at Swish, Products: B&B Surf Spray, Grooming Creme

15 thoughts on “How to Grow Up

  1. Ugh I just adore your posts. This quote resonated with me so hard: ” I am forced to leave behind traditions and trips that I have grown up with and even recently added to my life. I am also confronted with adjusting to new environments, jobs and people- constantly. I am letting go of the safety of young comforts. I am challenged to strengthen my faith.” — Yes. Just, yes. So much truth and realness in that statement. I’m in this same place and it’s hard and heartbreaking but just a little bit exciting at the same time. Thank you for sharing your sweet soul with us, Hannah! <3 xx

    1. I know you can totally relate as a young real grown up, and I absolutely love that. I think the best way we can keep growing up is by seeing what works best for our individual personalities and desired lifestyles. Obsessing over what the what other people.. i.e. family and friends think of our life choices, is not the route to take. You are growing up with grace my dear!

  2. I love your heart & how you express yourself. I love your personality & sense of style. I love hearing about who & what is dear to you. I love your cute little face & the bunny that you are. Thank you for sharing yourself with us. I am enriched for knowing you.

  3. Miss Hannybee…I saw two quotes today while playing tourist in Beaufort (loving being back home in SC!!) and thought I’d share. First, “Just because I wander doesn’t mean I’m lost.” This rang true to me because I think I wander, and perhaps your love for travel too means the same, but it’s because I truly feel led most places. No matter where it is that I roam, my faith takes me to and through those places, and God constantly reveals to me reasons for my wandering. Second, “May the bridges I burn light the way.” This one struck a chord because I think often, as we’re growing, we make choices that sometimes don’t suit others so well, but in the end we find that they always lead us where we’re meant to be.

    Great post again. Keep up the good work of trusting Him to lead you wherever you’re meant to be, even if sometimes you feel like you’re missing out on one thing or another. He’s got a plan…trust that.

    1. I love that! Thank you for reading and sharing! “Not all who wander are lost..” -> I have always felt that those words reflect my lifestyle and my faith. I definitely feel secure in God’s placement, despite not always staying in one place. AND I love the second quote because sometimes I care too much how my decisions are affecting others. You are right; the bridges burned are a part of God’s plan. Love it love it. Thank you for the love and encouragement!

    1. Thank you 🙂 I think you navigate adulthood very well. You lead a very admirable life by raising your children with loads of love and always working hard! We are so lucky to have God’s provision and careful planning. Thanks for stopping by the blog, your words mean a lot! 🙂

  4. First, that movie is MY JAM! Second, I love your jeans. Third, I grew up, moved away from my fam and miss them and miss out on everything they’re all doing together. I get you. But I know this is where me, my huz, and lil’ girl are supposed to be right now.

    1. *grins* AGREED! I am so excited to get back to Charleston and I am so ready for a super fun and humid fall!! We will plan something ASAP upon my arrival! Xo Hannah

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